Depression & Me

I had for many years practiced as a successful Personal Injury Lawyer working for a few of the leading Personal Injury firms in this Country dealing with all sorts of accidents and injuries ensuring I did the best for my clients in obtaining the maximum awards as well as trying to make sure they had the best possible medical help too.

Over the years helped many clients obtain damages for their physical and psychological injuries, including damages for child abuse, Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome (PTSD).

I have represented clients with industrial diseases and all types of injuries including claims for the death of a loved one.

I specialised in later years, pursuing claims for  “Work Induced Stress”,  which included damages for Anxiety and depression, often due to the poor treatment and bullying by their employers but never for one moment believed this would ever happen to me.

Throughout my career as a Lawyer, I worked long hours, the job was very stressful at times but I loved my job and had been really lucky to have great heads of department and an excellent team of lawyers to work with.

After a bad choice in moving jobs, I  was again placed under enormous pressure, worked long hours, weekends which I had in past thrived on.  However, the style of management was condescending, critical and bullying by my direct head of department and I was unaware that there was a history of bullying others for a while.

Over the proceeding months, I became very unhappy, I did not look forward to getting up in the morning and going to work. I developed headaches, I was not sleeping was always tired and started to feel down and in a low mood which was very unlike me. 

Every morning I would think up some excuse not to go into work, although I always did, as I believed that if I didn’t go in one day I would keep finding excuses not to go in every day, so I kept going in believing it would get better but it never did.

Although I did not notice it at the time, I began to withdraw socially as I didn’t want to attend work functions or even see my friends so made all types of excuses. 

My poor husband was in the firing line as arguments became frequent about trivial things, I put on lots of weight as I was eating so late, unhealthily and comfort eating, my clothes no longer fitted Just wanted to cover up.

 Then my health deteriorated and I became sick with constant headaches, dizziness, high blood pressure, which led panic attacks and angina. I was admitted to the hospital believing I had a problem with my heart. Luckily after months of tests, I was assured that my heart was strong and it was stress and anxiety that was making my blood pressure to rise, causing panic attacks and angina. 

My GP placed me on anti-depressants and after a number of months I was given 6 sessions of CBT but over the phone, which was odd but helped to some degree. I hated having to go out and go anywhere near my old workplace or the thought of bumping into anyone would set off a panic attack and cause an angina attack.

This is when I realised that something needed to change, the job had to go and retirement plans were brought forward. I found a course in Chelmsford to train as a Counsellor/Psychotherapist and Hypnotherapist and have never looked back.

Most of my help and strength was due to starting my Counselling/Psychotherapy and Hypnotherapy training course. I was immediately was fascinated with the brain and human behaviour and after reading, listening exploring depression and anxiety, I was able to recognise 'that although I could not help becoming depressed and did not chose to be so, I could, however, choose what I could do about it'. So I decided it was time to place my energy into my exciting new career and having experienced depression myself I could help others take control and rid themselves of it too.

I know how it is to feel Guilty because I became depressed and ashamed that I was depressed. I didn’t want people to know, I was so ashamed that I allowed someone to bully me as I  could not stand up for myself.  Lastly, I was embarrassed to tell anyone, as I believed that there was a stigma to have the label Clinically Depressed that I did not want to wear.

I have spent the last nearly 4 years training and have numerous diplomas and certificates providing me with many tools to help those with Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, OCD, Grieving, bullying and overcome fears/phobias. I am also able to help those who lack self-esteem, self- worth, find it or regain it and become the more confident person who they want to be and much more.

 BWRT (Brain Working Recursive Therapy) helped me to clear all my past difficulties, depression, anxieties, panic attacks and bullying  and has helped me re-discover my confidence, self-esteem and self-worth which I has changed my life and turned a difficult time into an exciting new adventure.

I am now a successful Advanced Psychotherapist in BWRT, Hypnotherapy and Counselling. BWRT is an Amazing, Powerful Psychotherapy that works very fast and efficiently on Anxieties, Depression, Stress, Panic Attacks, Bullying, OCD and PTSD, Bereavement, Fears/phobias and to gain Confidence, Self-esteem and Self-worth together with many other issues.

I can help you to change how you feel about depression, the Guilt, the Shame and the Embarrassment, please contact Jacqui on 07717856999 or at jacqui@jsntherapies.co.uk

for free half an hour one to one assessment.